It has been so long since I have posted something, but I realised that I haven't actually spoken about where I am at right now in my life!
Basically there will come a point in your life where you would have finished all your studies and are now left with pondering about 'what is to come' ie. the 'future'! It is a scary place, your not at that age anymore where you can just say "I want to do this" but really when we all said that it was just some dream or aspiration! But really now you actually have to do something about your dreams.... I'm going to be honest it's a confusing place to be...
I always knew I wanted to help people, whether it was going to another country to dig a well, build a shelter or just work for a charity, I just knew I wanted to help people. I kind of forgot about what I really wanted to do and got sucked into the path that many asian girls get sucked into : 'law and medicine'. Now I am not dissing anyone who chooses to do those subjects, I mean I had an amazing time at Uni and I am really glad I did a law degree but honestly in my heart of hearts I knew I did it to make my parents happy. Now there is nothing wrong in pleasing your parents because as children we should always yearn to make them happy. BUT in our religion and on the day of judgement, Allah will not ask us what grade we got in our degree. Degree can get you far in this life, but always remember that the next life is eternal.
Please don't think that I am telling you that education is not important, because trust me after our religion it is THE most important thing that you all need to focus on but what I am trying to say (but taking ages to say it) is that do something that you love. So many people will question your judgements but the only judgement you should truly care about is Allah's.
I am about to start an internship at Cancer Research and I feel so happy but yet feel a little sad for some reason. It is an amazing opportunity, but again I know that not everyone understands my career choices. But you know what, if the people who are really close to you get what your doing and if you are happy, then that is all that matters :)
Ok so basically hijab update : so it has been 6 months since I have been wearing my hijab and honestly it is THE best thing I have done in my life. I cannot actually imagine my life without it. It is a security blanket for me now, it protects me. But you know what, something that you may or may not come across is that once you start showing very strong iman, shaytaan is after you. As haunting as it sounds, it is true. I read something and it really has stayed with me : "why would a thief rob an empty house?" The shaytaan will always be with those that have strong hearts, remember that Allah tests the ones he loves so stay strong and always have faith. This life is just a test, don't loose sight of why we are here and what our purpose is and what the final destinational will be :)
So my advice to my darling sisters (our little group is growing): do what pleases your parents, you and foremost Allah. Love you all x
