Ramadan 2012

Assalam Walaikum my little sisters. Sorry I have not written anything for a while , I have been very busy! Okay so, it's Ruza and we are now in the last 10 days - and I can honestly say that my heart just fills with sadness by the thought that it will all be over soon.

When I was younger I just kept ruza for the sake of it, you just keep it because your parent's tell you or because we just know that it's 'right' to keep it. But when you get older you soon realise the real importance of fasting.

Now, if you want a very clear and concise reason for why we fast click this: http://islamqa.info/en/ref/38064. But for me, especially over the last couple of years since nanu died ruza has been something much more than an 'obligation', it has been something which I truly look forward to. It's really hard to put into words how much ruza means to me and only Allah SWT knows what is in my heart but it's like a yearning. I yearn that everyday I please Allah, that I am truly utilising my time, that I am repenting and that I am amongst those that Allah guides. And for me, this yearning just doesn't stop after ruza - but it literally charges my batteries and my heart and just makes me realise our purpose in life.

We never ever take the time during our day to day life to stop and think, "what are we actually doing here?" We are not a figment of eachother's imagination, we are real, we are here on this earth for a reason. Look around Allah has created everything, and He has created everything so perfectly and we as his servants are leading our lives for Him. I always sit and ponder this every night and think about the day I die. On that day - we will have no time left on this dunya, which has been provided to us as a means to get to Jannah. "Have I done enough?" is what I always ask myself, and the answer is "no". We never do enough. I want my heart to be filled with love for Allah - and that is what I am yearning for.

So, ruza for me is more than fasting - it's a reminder that we are only here for a short time - let's devote that time to Allah SWT.

I really pray and make duaa that as you grow up and InshAllah keep your fasts, that everyday you realise the value and blessing that Allah has bestowed upon you. He has chosen us and allowed us to fast and the best thing we can do, as His slaves is to submit our hearts to Allah and realise how blessed we truly are.

Love all you munchkins so much

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